Keeping it all together - Balancing Acts Part II

I have been feeling all out of sorts lately. I mentioned earlier this month that I have a hard time balancing all of my responsibilities and hobbies with the drain my lupus takes on me. It's hard to do everything you need and want to do under the best of circumstances, but when you're not feeling well that it just amplified.

I have been overdoing it lately because I feel like I NEED to keep some sort of balance. I'm working hard, so that means I have to work extra hard at keeping up with friends, spouse, etc. I have to make sure that I don't just do ONE load of laundry in an evening, but all laundry laying around (yes, it piles up).

The problem is I feel like I'm starting to sacrifice me again. I have been good about taking time to cook healthy, delicious foods so I'm saving money and getting my diet/weight back under some control, but I'm letting my meditation and yoga practice slip.

I hate this, but I also know it's my M.O. When things get overwhelming I push myself to overload and put myself out the back burner. Intellectually, I know that I need to carve out some small space and time for myself, but it's hard when my head keeps telling me that the time I'd use for me could be spent in other directions.

I'm putting all this out there because I promised myself that this blog would be the one place where I could keep it real with myself, and keep myself accountable. My blog readers and Tweeps will hopefully give me the kick in the ass I need and remind me of what I always tell other people. You have to put your mask on first before you can help anyone else.




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