Thursday, January 31, 2013

I'm back and what I learned

Despite being an advocate for taking care of oneself completely, I fail at it miserably all the time. I got really burnt out and my body just said NO MORE and crapped out on me which landed me in the hospital for a full week.

So what I learned there:

Sleep.
Nutrition.
Exercise.
Gratitude.
Acceptance.
Love.
Self-care.
Community.
Genuine connections to others.

If you don't have these things, your mind and body will never be well. I am home now with my body in somewhat working order, but way better than it was before, and my mind a lot clearer. I've been sleeping 8+ hours a night and eating balanced meals and reconnecting with friends and family I've isolated myself from. I feel good.




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Tuesday, January 22, 2013

On a break

I'm dealing with some serious medical stuff right now so I'm taking a break from everything except sleeping, occasionally eating, occasionally responding to emails, occasionally perusing facebook, etc. I don't know how long this break will last. But just wanted to keep my peeps updated. If you have my personal email, you can email me. If not, I do check my twitter and blog feeds occasionally.

I'll be back...at some point.


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Tuesday, January 15, 2013

#Whole30 Day 1

I confess, it has been super easy because I worked from home today. I also used some Pre-Made Paleo meals.  Honestly, it's one of the simplest food routines I've ever been on. I am eating lots of meat and veggies.Yes, I do have cravings, but I just ask myself "Would I eat steamed fish and broccoli right now?" and if the answer is no, I drink tea or water.

I do have a bit of a headache, but that's more from waiting too long to eat dinner. So far so good!

Monday, January 14, 2013

Day 0 - my test run

I have a confession - I'm totally scared of the Whole30. I am afraid I'm going to fail miserably, and I almost let this fear stop me before I even began. I decided that today would be my day 0 - my test day - to see how I felt. I am feeling pretty lousy health-wise, since my lupus is acting up badly, and I didn't I had enough in my health account to make good decisions.

But then I realized I was overthinking things. I have 10 premade meals. I have frozen veggies that have no sugar or added bad stuff. I have plenty of meat in my freezer. I needed to shut my brain up and just do it.

So I pulled out my peppered beef and some brussel sprouts and just heated it up. It's delicious. And filling.

I have more brussel sprouts for lunch and I have another premade protein. Same for dinner. I can do this. I will do this.




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Sunday, January 13, 2013

Whole30 Workshop

Saturday, January 12th changed my life. I met the amazing Melissa and Dallas Hartwig. I am starstruck  blown away and in awe of them. They are amazingly intelligent, sharp, witty, funny, and genuine.And they are stunningly gorgeous. Truly, the whole package. I want to be Melissa when I grow up :)

I learned so much from them, and felt like they made sense of things that I inherently knew but didn't know how to verbalize.Where do I begin???

The day was hosted by Team CrossFit Academy in Monrovia, CA. What a wonderful facility! If I ever have the capacity to do something at the intensity of crossfit again, I would highly recommend them. The owner, Eric, was a gracious host and both staff and members were so wonderfully helpful and awesome.

Then came Dallas and Melissa. Even though I had read the workshop packet and the first few chapters of It Starts with Food, I really didn't know what to expect. My BFF Cecilia attended the workshop the week before and was excited, but I didn't want to sip the koolaid too early.

They started off with talking about the scientific research, clinical experience and scientific experience that back their recommendations. I was pleased to see that they were apparently well versed in science, but I wasn't fully convinced.  Then they started talking about their four good food standards and started getting into the real science, and I was sold. Kool-aid down the hatch. I'm a convert.

In my day-job, I spend a lot of time with doctors and understand a good bit of basic science. So when they started talking my language, I knew that not only were they in the know, they were legit. Not only did they understand and were able to translate the basic science, but they also understood and took into account the extreme importance of the psychological aspects of food. I was particularly impressed that they took time to focus on autoimmune diseases and the role food plays in the way it affects our (autoimmune disease living people) lives.

I would be remiss if I didn't give a shout-out to Pre-Made Paleo and Chef Rich who made a fabulous lunch and convinced me that paleo eating does not have to be at all boring. I can't begin to tell you how good the food was...and highly recommend that you check out their delivery service.

I have a good ten pages of hand-written notes, and I don't want to give a book report or make it easy for you to not read the book. So I will say this.

  • I learned that sometimes hormones are stronger than willpower. 
  • I learned that it's important to have standards for your food. 
  • I learned that I'm not the only one with a sugar addiction.
  • I confirmed that the Standard American Diet (SAD) is ridiculously stupid. 
  • I was disappointed to see that such a huge topic is not addressed in the regular medical community when it is the one thing we can change. 
  • I learned why previous efforts have been only moderately successful. 
  • I realized that some of the things that I learned on my journey so far were on point - grains are bad for me personally - and there is still so much I have to learn through self experimentation. A great example was finding out that eggs may not be great for someone with autoimmune diseases. It makes so much sense considering how I felt yesterday after eating eggs for breakfast.
Most importantly, I learned that I am passionately committed to making this my new lifestyle. 

I'll admit, I'm scared. I am worried that I'll fail. I'm worried that I'll give up and not meet my goals. The Whole30 is not easy...but then again, living with lupus, working full time, grad school, marriage, navigating health insurance, and life is not easy.  

But whether it takes me 30 days to get through it, or 90, I will do it. I will make this LIFESTYLE CHANGE. I am worth it. My life, my friends and family are worth it.   If I can conquer this, I can conquer anything. 


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Saturday, January 12, 2013

Quick Post before I run off...

I am so so excited...heading off to the Whole30 workshop in Monrovia, CA today. Can't wait to cram my head full of knowledge and meet some awesome people!!




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Friday, January 11, 2013

Fabulous Friday

I'll be honest. When I woke up, I felt anything but fabulous. I am over a week late for my monthly infusion of lupus meds, I slept great until about 5am, my stomach was upset, and I needed a good two more hours of sleep.



So what did I do? I got up and did some yoga.

That's right. I'm tired of staying in bed and whining. I have health challenges that are NEVER going away. I need to do whatever I can to get my body to function in the way I want. So I'm exercising.


Tomorrow I'm starting Day 0 of the Whole30 and am attending the Whole9Life workshop in Monrovia, CA. I'm super excited because my bffae (best friend forever and ever) Cecilia started a little over a week ago and she's doing great on it. I trust pretty much anything she says/does, so I'm all for it. She's never steered me wrong.


So after a few days of needed rest, I'm back in the game. 40 minutes of restorative yoga and 30 minutes of handweight and bodyweight exercises. I'm really focused on my core and arms, as those are my weakest areas.



While I wish I could go back to sleep, I'm ready to tackle this Friday, which will be fabulous for so many reasons: It's 7:30 and I've already gotten a good workout in, we're going to lunch to celebrate a coworker's birthday, I'll be home early enough to spend some quality time with the husband, and tomorrow is the Whole30 workshop.

Can't get more fabulous than that :)



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Thursday, January 10, 2013

One Thought Thursday

I know I've said it before, but this year is already WAAAY better than last year, health wise. I'm pretty excited about that. Despite this good health streak, I've been facing some challenges that I'm not quite sure how to handle. Some are personal, some are related to work, and others are related to healthcare. I was thinking out loud yesterday about how it seems like I never get a break but the quote below really put things into perspective. I'm dealing with the stuff in my life because it's meant to teach me something and bring me to the next level of awesome in life. Although I want to at times fast forward through things, I am trying to take the time to appreciate what I have and get the most out of this experience.



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Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Wednesday Goal Check In

Not exactly what I wanted, but I have a 3lb gain this week. I know why, and part of it was out of my control - thanks, monthly bloat - but I'm not happy.

Other than that, I've been pretty on point.

I'm meditating daily, I'm throwing myself into my work but leaving it at the office, I'm trying to reach out to friends, I'm making it to hot yoga (which I think is doing more harm than good), and I'm making an effort to be more active. I'm also getting more sleep.

Blah. I want to go back to bed.




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Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Random Facts About Elyse

Everything you never wanted to know about me. Because I was bored.

I used to be a baton twirler in high school.
I sang in glee club in high school.
I used to be a decent kayaker.
I am allergic to mango.
I have broken both elbows, one wrist and one ankle, all in different incidents.
I have torn ligaments in my wrist and ankle.
I REALLY love hitting things with a sledgehammer and miss it dearly.
I love to kick.
The last time I played a season of an official team sport was in 4th grade.
I love yoga because I'm challenging myself without competing with anyone.
I found out after moving to Southern California that I am photosensitive (somewhat allergic to the sun)
I used to fall A LOT.
I bruise easily.
I smile when I'm angry, upset, hurt or sad.
I have been called "Little Napoleon" for my type-A personality.
I am a chatterbox.
I love chocolate. Except dark chocolate.
I need a good 9-10 hours sleep every night to function well, but I'm an insomniac and normally only sleep 4-5 hour at a time and never more than 7 in a night.
I am a sugar addict.
I am the only one of 4 siblings that doesn't have asthma, but the only one with major medical issues.
I was recognized by the House of Representatives in 2004.
I have a Masters degree in public administration and have no desire to work for any government agency.
I auditioned to be a munchkin on the broadway performance of the wizard of oz. Not chosen.
I was on an episode of the Doctors (daytime tv).
I started college when I was 16.
I have really short arms and my friends call me T-Rex.
Most people will describe me as a social butterfly, but I'm really shy and sensitive.
I didn't start wearing makeup until I was 26.
When I broke my right elbow at 5 yrs old, my arm was set wrong. As a result, 27 years later, I still cannot touch my right shoulder with my right hand.



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Monday, January 7, 2013

Motivational Mondays

I still haven't found my work mojo, and I fell off the eating train pretty hard this weekend. But I woke up determined not to let the last two days be an indication of the week to come. Even though I slept later than I wanted to, I still got up and went through my new morning routine - 1 hour of working out. Half an hour of yoga, and half an hour of hand weights and body weight exercises. I left out the crunches and situps this morning because I was feeling a bit sore, but everything else was on the table. Pushups, plank holds, tricep dips, and all the arm weight stuff I've been doing.

I refuse to let my mistakes or slip-ups make me feel like I am a lost cause. Every day is a new opportunity to start again.



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Saturday, January 5, 2013

Making Sure My Habits are Stronger than My Intentions

Despite the fact that I had a hard time going back to work this week and had a totally screwy sleep schedule, I managed to do really well with my exercise/health. I made mostly good food choices, and I added in some strengthening exercises. My coworker, a former trainer, gave me some good tips, as did my fellow SweatPink, GirlsGoneSporty and Greatist Ambassador friends.



Since I've got a work conference call scheduled for this morning, I'll be going to an afternoon yoga class. But that's not stopping me from getting the rest of my workout in. This morning, I walked my dog as a nice warmup, then came inside to get down to work. I did about half an hour of yoga, and then got to the fun stuff: Three rep of shoulder presses, bicep curls, flys, reverse flys, tricep dips, tricep skull crushers, a few other arm exercises I can't remember the names of, crunches, and plank holds.


I ended with some restorative yoga and a ten minute meditation. I feel really good about it, and feel like it's definitely improving my yoga.

I then checked in with my Facebook page and saw that I broke 100 followers. I think I may even have cracked 400 twitter followers. That's insane!! It's just little ol' me talking about what I do.

It's super exciting to see so many amazing people on their fitness journeys and supporting mine. Being an ambassador has really opened my eyes to the awesome communities out there, and it's nice to have my own little group of people interested in similar things :). I've said it several times this week, and I'll say it again. To everyone who is new to following me on Twitter, Facebook or this blog:


My big goal for the weekend is to establish a decent 5k training program for myself. I've done a 5K and a half marathon before, so I know what I need to do. When I did those events, I was easily 30lbs heavier, so I am interested in seeing what a difference it will make for me. I know that right now, as of this moment, I could walk the 5K with no problem, but I want to beat my previous time (I walked 95% of that one).


I also really want to get back to reading two books that I've been meaning to pick up and really dive into for a while - Mindfulness in Plain English and the Yoga Sutras of Pantajali.

What are your weekend plans?


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Friday, January 4, 2013

Fitness Friday

Getting back to work this week has been rough. I am so glad that it is Friday. I slept better last night than I have all week and managed to stay in bed until 6:30, when I decided it was time to get up and exercise.

I started off with some yoga - some stretches, seated twists, cat/cow, balasana, sukhasana, upward dog, downward dog, cobra, and of course savasana. Then I did 2 reps of skull crushers, tricep dips, pushups, plank holds, situps, and crunches. I ended with reverse savasana - mainly lying on my stomach relaxing all my muscles.

It feels good to have a morning routine that will help strengthen the rest of my practices. I haven't started on my C25K yet, but am hoping to start tonight or tomorrow.

I keep thinking back to something my favorite yoga instructor, Fred, said on Tuesday. He said, "What's stronger, your intentions or your habits?" as a way to encourage us to stick with our practice beyond the typical new year's resolution. I've always had the strongest of intentions, and I now want to make my habits even stronger. Because this is the year I will change. Dramatically.

Now I'm off to meditate for a bit before getting ready for the day.

What are you doing on this fitness Friday?


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Thursday, January 3, 2013

One Thought Thursday - Chaturanga

I slept a solid 7 hours, but was still up at 5am. So I decided to finish reading a novel, do some meditation, and get some exercise in. I wanted to tackle what I consider to be my biggest weakness - arm strength. So I did some tricep dips, skull crushers, pushups, plank holds and my nemesis - Chaturanga. For the life of me, I can't seem to make my body hold that pose, but I'm not going to let that stop me. My goal is to master the Chaturanga. It will not keep me down.







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Wednesday, January 2, 2013

First Wednesday Goal Check In of 2013

Sigh. Today I go back to work. I slept most of yesterday after yoga and slept decently until around 1am, and tossed and turned until 6am. I figure working a full day and not getting in any naps will set my sleep schedule back to something resembling normal.

Anyway, it's my first goal check in of the year. I decided that I was going to do monthly goals instead of just big sweeping goals. So here we go:

Highest Weight: 235lbs
Lowest Weight: can't remember
Last Week: 191
This week: 190
Change: -1

I'm pretty excited about this, as this marks the official 45lb mark for me. I've been at this weight for a few days now but didn't want to make a big fuss in case it was a fluke, but I'm trending in the right direction again.



Other goals:

1. Yoga: I went on Sunday and Tuesday, and plan on going on Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. Friday also if I can fit it in. I had a massage that went badly - while I didn't feel anything during, I ended up with major bruises on my back and some stiff muscles. Yoga worked most of it out, but my goal today as a rest day is to get back into a decent sleep cycle.

2. Walking: I've been good about walking every day with my dog and plan on hitting the road as soon as I finish this blog post :). It's super cold for LA, but it just means we walk faster :)

3. Water: I'm drinking tons of it. I think I might be a bit dehydrated, but it keeps me chugging

4. Weights: I have been actively looking for a good weight routine specifically for my arms (to better support some yoga poses) and have narrowed it down to about 5. From there I'm going to choose by the end of the week what I want to start with and what I want to build up to over time.

5. Meditation: I've been sitting for 10 minutes at a time, and it's definitely challenging quieting my mind, especially as I was getting closer to coming back to work. I am actively re-reading Mindfulness in Plain English, as I think mindfulness meditation is the track I want to take at this point in my life.

6. Start the Whole 30: I've signed up for the workshop on 1/12 in Monrovia, and 1/12 will be Day 0 of the plan for me. I'm reading It Starts With Food, so I'll be somewhat prepared for the workshop. I'm not gorging on bad foods between now and then, but rather slowly making progress so starting won't be a shock to my system.

7. Seeing my spiritual guru: Marianne only speaks on Wednesdays, but I've been listening to recordings of her talks this week.

8. Throwing myself into the challenges I've signed up for. Only one has started so far, the #YogaADay Instagram challenge, and I'm 3 days behind on that. I really need to figure out a better way to take full body selfies or get Omar or someone at work to help me out.

9. Throw myself into work with a passion. Well, we'll see how it goes this week. But I'm in the right mindset.

I'm feeling progress on all fronts and it's only week one of the year. Go me!



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Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Happy New Year!

I rang in the New Year in the best way possible. In pjs, with my husband and dog, laughing ourselves silly at Kathy Griffin and Anderson Cooper. I say this from experience. Never, EVER, EVER play the Anderson Cooper drinking game. Despite winning (or losing) significantly, I stayed within my limits and had no hangover or ill effects this morning. So much so, my husband and I went for a nice brisk walk with the dog.

So it's a new year, and new things on the horizon.

The blog is going to change slightly. I'll still ramble on with my self reflections and realizations, because that's who I am. But I'm going to be talking a lot more (and practically) about food, exercise and work/life balance, because that's what's most important to me. I have set my intentions personally, focusing on finding calm, peace, health and joy. I am setting my goals as I go along and plan to crush them each month.

So January Goals:
- Start the Whole 30




- Go to yoga 3-4 days a week




- Start logging my walks - husband and I agreed to take at least 100 walks together this year.




- Drink more water.




- Actively participate in all the challenges I signed up for










- See my spiritual guru, Marianne Williamson, speak once a month




- Throw myself into my work with a passion and intensity that I thought long dead between 9 and 5 and leave work at work.




Will you share your monthly goals with me? I'm all about sharing as a way of keeping accountable. Be my buddy?
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