My first answer was my health, but when I really stopped to reflect, I realize it is my own fear of success.
Yes, my health is a factor in all that I do. Because of my unpredictable conditions, I'm never quite sure whether or not I'll make it to the studio, no matter despite my best intentions. However, even more paralyzing than my health is the fear that I've developed - a fear of getting injured, my fear of this becoming an unhealthy obsession, and my fear of not being good enough. While I seem to brim with self-confidence, the truth is my self-esteem for various reasons is low, and I often talk myself out of doing things out of fear of being rejected or looking silly/dumb. It can be a paralyzing fear in many aspects of my life, but when it comes to yoga, I find that I can break through with enough self talk.
Because yoga is not a competition. Yoga is the one thing I truly do that is just for me. Yoga is more than about nailing that perfect asana - yoga for me is finding peace every time I step on the mat.
I've been mainly practicing at home the last few months, but at my doctor's recommendation, I'm going to restart my studio practice this week. I'm super excited, because nothing gives me the same quite thrill as stepping into a studio and knowing that I'm going to spend the next hour or so dedicating myself to this wonderful practice.
What is the biggest obstacle getting in the way of achieving your goals? Is it an external issue? Or, like me, are you plagued with self-doubt that stops you from doing what you want?
If so, let's keep each other in check and make sure that we don't let ourselves miss out on the opportunities to better ourselves.
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